I received a mail yesterday which gave me a very sad news..one of my friends passed away, who was just 27..He died in his sleep..a silent cardiac arrest.. how horrible it is..
He got married only 6 months back...she is also my friend..
The news came as a big shock..I still can't get rid of that or forget their faces..especially her..
somebody said it was at least a peaceful death...Does that really make a difference..at the age of 27....
They say everything happens for a reason..but what reason in such instances...That sentence is not true..may be only partially true..
It is a man made statement only to comfort people...
How uncertain our life is...nothing is true...everything is only true at the present moment..you can't believe anything...
You can't plan anything... I feel like you should never plan anything...Just live the life in the present..and if you want to do something, do it today...do it now.. who knows what is going to happen tomorrow..
I really sound pretty negative.... May be my thoughts are not making sense at this moment...
But...?? just a question mark only...
Monday, June 28, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
soccer...
Everyone around me talk about soccer only these days. Whenever two people meet, they talk only about soccer, soccer and soccer only.
It seems like they breathe soccer. I am not able to develop an interest in these things too.
I used to watch cricket and tennis when I was a child. I remember I started watching soccer as a small child. When I could only understand a goal as a winning sign. Then later when I started to read, I could enjoy tennis and cricket as well. During the course of time, I wanted and enjoyed playing Chess for some time. Don't know when I lost the interest in all these. Nowadays I don't watch any sports or games. I want to play tennis. But I don't know why I am not taking the initiative to start that too, nevertheless there is a beautiful tennis court in our new building.
what are my favourite things?
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens,
bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens,
brown paper packages tied up with strings,
these are a few of my favourite things.
Yes. These are definitely, except whiskers on kittens. I don't like kittens much,but I like puppies.
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes,
snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes,
silver white winters that melt into springs,
these are a few of my favourite things.
I miss snowy winter. It is not snowing here. :(
When the dog bites, when the bee stings,
when I'm feeling sad,
I simply remember my favourite things,
and then I don't feel so bad.
hmmm...no I don't do that. I don't remember my favourite things when I am sad and that's not making me happy.
This is the sign that I am getting old....
I wanted to draw and paint. But I don't do that. I do listening to music at least. But that's not enough in this horrible winter. Watching TV would definitely be boring, if you are going to do only that. Luckily I am not doing that either. I like to write blogs. But these days I don't have the patience to write in Malayalam. I am a bit homesick. I miss my good friends too.
When you are away from your roots, when you are away from your loved ones, you should be really bold enough to survive the boredom I think. Today when I write these things I am really sad about a week-end I wasted. From Monday onwards, I long for a weekend. But when it becomes Friday, I am lazy and sit idle doing nothing. And at the end of Sunday, I realise how smartly I have wasted two days and feel sad. This is really bad. I have to do something to prevent this. I am planning to do things , but which are simply not happening for some reason. I think my plans are very abstract. You have to go into further details. Then only it will happen.
Anyway, again a new week. Have a good week to everyone. :)
It seems like they breathe soccer. I am not able to develop an interest in these things too.
I used to watch cricket and tennis when I was a child. I remember I started watching soccer as a small child. When I could only understand a goal as a winning sign. Then later when I started to read, I could enjoy tennis and cricket as well. During the course of time, I wanted and enjoyed playing Chess for some time. Don't know when I lost the interest in all these. Nowadays I don't watch any sports or games. I want to play tennis. But I don't know why I am not taking the initiative to start that too, nevertheless there is a beautiful tennis court in our new building.
what are my favourite things?
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens,
bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens,
brown paper packages tied up with strings,
these are a few of my favourite things.
Yes. These are definitely, except whiskers on kittens. I don't like kittens much,but I like puppies.
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes,
snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes,
silver white winters that melt into springs,
these are a few of my favourite things.
I miss snowy winter. It is not snowing here. :(
When the dog bites, when the bee stings,
when I'm feeling sad,
I simply remember my favourite things,
and then I don't feel so bad.
hmmm...no I don't do that. I don't remember my favourite things when I am sad and that's not making me happy.
This is the sign that I am getting old....
I wanted to draw and paint. But I don't do that. I do listening to music at least. But that's not enough in this horrible winter. Watching TV would definitely be boring, if you are going to do only that. Luckily I am not doing that either. I like to write blogs. But these days I don't have the patience to write in Malayalam. I am a bit homesick. I miss my good friends too.
When you are away from your roots, when you are away from your loved ones, you should be really bold enough to survive the boredom I think. Today when I write these things I am really sad about a week-end I wasted. From Monday onwards, I long for a weekend. But when it becomes Friday, I am lazy and sit idle doing nothing. And at the end of Sunday, I realise how smartly I have wasted two days and feel sad. This is really bad. I have to do something to prevent this. I am planning to do things , but which are simply not happening for some reason. I think my plans are very abstract. You have to go into further details. Then only it will happen.
Anyway, again a new week. Have a good week to everyone. :)
Thursday, June 17, 2010
freezing....
I feel like marooned this winter. It's not snowing..but it's either raining cats n dogs or freezing cold.
I am unable to do anything even though I plan to do many things. I increase the thermostat to maximum and it's severely drying out my skin. Cold or dry, both ways feeling terrible.
To make matters worse, I found a cavity in one of my molars which is really disturbing me or rather I really disturb it..
I floss three times daily these days...whenever I eat something, I feel like something has gotten into the cavity as well.
I am scared to go to a dentist also..I wish I were a dentist so that I can fill the cavity myself..I would have even dared to do the procedure myself if I found out some simple demo in youtube..
One good thing I have done to make me feel better is watching Prince of Persia...it has taken me a few years back in my study room...one of the first computer games I used to play when I was a child.. I liked the movie...It kept me thinking about the magical sands of time the whole night..If I get an opportunity to use that once, do I want to undo something from my life? I can find out many things from the world history...but from my life, I don't know..
But I can't find anything which would have been better in some other way...so one very good thing I realized is "No regrets about my life" .. At last a good thing to be happy about :)
I am unable to do anything even though I plan to do many things. I increase the thermostat to maximum and it's severely drying out my skin. Cold or dry, both ways feeling terrible.
To make matters worse, I found a cavity in one of my molars which is really disturbing me or rather I really disturb it..
I floss three times daily these days...whenever I eat something, I feel like something has gotten into the cavity as well.
I am scared to go to a dentist also..I wish I were a dentist so that I can fill the cavity myself..I would have even dared to do the procedure myself if I found out some simple demo in youtube..
One good thing I have done to make me feel better is watching Prince of Persia...it has taken me a few years back in my study room...one of the first computer games I used to play when I was a child.. I liked the movie...It kept me thinking about the magical sands of time the whole night..If I get an opportunity to use that once, do I want to undo something from my life? I can find out many things from the world history...but from my life, I don't know..
But I can't find anything which would have been better in some other way...so one very good thing I realized is "No regrets about my life" .. At last a good thing to be happy about :)
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
flu? !!! no no
Feeling so so tired today. I can't even concentrate on my work. Flu is on air. At least one person in my office is taking leave every single day.
I am trying to change something in the framework. Tweaking framework is always a head ache.
I don't like writing blogs from office. But today to distract my mind, have to do something different. It's new job..Just completing two months
only. Taking leaves may not be appropriate in the initial days. But my hands are paining. I have got a splitting headache and I feel bit cold too. Am I getting flue?
As shmabu prays, God, pls I don't want flu now. A long weekend is coming. Met service says saturday is gonna be a sunny day. I don't want to catch flu now.
I am trying to change something in the framework. Tweaking framework is always a head ache.
I don't like writing blogs from office. But today to distract my mind, have to do something different. It's new job..Just completing two months
only. Taking leaves may not be appropriate in the initial days. But my hands are paining. I have got a splitting headache and I feel bit cold too. Am I getting flue?
As shmabu prays, God, pls I don't want flu now. A long weekend is coming. Met service says saturday is gonna be a sunny day. I don't want to catch flu now.
CyberJalakam
